Looking at the stars, really looking inside

I have to figure out a new way of looking at my star map. I use my flash light and some times my head lamp at a low setting, but after looking at the map then looking up at the sky it takes a little while for my eyes to adjust.  Sometimes by the time they adjust I forgot the constellation I was looking at or for. It is kinda funny. I am enjoying my time alone more and more. It is so nice to listen to me and my thoughts without thinking of the rest of the things I usually think about. Not to say that I don't think about my loved ones in the states. I just have been able to see, hear, and feel more by not having the clutter in my life. Even though the clutter is trying to accumulate here, but what is nice is that now I know what if feels like to have less clutter that I notice it as soon as it starts to try to stick. I hope that I can remember it for the rest of my life so I can keep as clear as possible.